Three

Falling apart,
Breaking my heart.
Falling in love again and again.
Leaves an imprint on my brain.

Am I such a masochist to wish for this?
Your love is your poison kiss.
I fall into my intoxicated state.
Depths of the end is my fate.

You taught me of betrayal,
I hated your angelic portrayal.
Why do I think of you even now?
Burn your golden crown!

You taught me not to rely on others,
My soul it smothers.
Despair takes over.
Sorry I wasn't your four leaf cover.

You taught me of the despair of your apathy.
I know now you'll never truly come back to me.
I hate you,
And oh how I wish you knew.

You're the one I watch behind frozen glass,
Hiding behind my mask.
I hold the gun to my head.
I wonder, "Can I shoot you instead?"

I'm sick of listening to your nonsense.
If only you knew what I meant.
I can't stand your jovial, plastic attitude,
Your lack of gratitude.

Maybe I should perform a something dramatic; drastic.
To melt all of your uncaring, smiling plastic.
Can't you look at me?
What can't you believe?

Fake scars line the inside of my mind,
Dreams and created hallucinations rob me blind.
I love you, and yet I don't even know you.
Can I stab you through and through?

I know an unreal, unknown pain.
It continuously drives me from the point of being sane.
Cry and moan alone.
Just you watch! My cover will never be blown!